It seems that lately I am bein' ignored/avoided by two peeps that I love :( Maybe I'm misinterpetin' but, it don't feel that way -_- I'm not a stalker, I don't try to ask weird/nosey questions, I keep my promises, blah, blah, blah. o.o! So what's wrong with me? I mean, 'course I'm not perfect, but I'm really confused. Why are they actin' like this? I don't know if 'tis unintentional or intentional. Anyways, I dunno if I should inniciate contact or not. Should I just wait to see whassup? And if I did do somethin' that made them uncomfortable for whadev reason, I wish that they would just tell me then. Please, no head games. I don't like those. Head games blow and nobody wins 'em, >< Yeah, there's my complaint for the day ^.^;

On the other hand, I've been blessed with loyal peeps ^^ And I can see some new friendships on the horizon. 'Tis very excitin' :) The year of 2007 is gonna rock! ^__^ 'Cause, I dunno...I just think so. ^^ I wanna be the person that God wants me to be. I wanna do thangs that change my world and other peep's worlds for the better^^ I mean, I can't believe I'm approuchin' 17, and I still haven't been totally confident in myself, and the peeps that I know. Well, that's all gonna change. Happiness isn't a mood, 'tis a lifestyle ^.~

Au revoir,
Akane~

Sick
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There was a time, when I could see our world
Your eyes used to shine, I was your pearl

But I drifted, like a stick ocean-bound
You were gifted, and found another gown

I think I always knew, that the one was you
And what I'm going through, it's what I had due

She is yours, and you are totally hers
This always occurs, when too soon you use spurrs
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My life is like a field that is filled with snow.
All the people that hurt me, never seem to go.
Their foot prints are in my field, taking my purity with them.
It never seems to snow here, so the holes will not be filled then?
I wait here, in my broken palace for someone, from somewhere.
There's a crack in my heart, so I'm sure you could fit there.
Will you come to see an empty soul, and a field full of pain?
Or will you go to another, and never think of this 'gain?
Can you be my snow, oh will you let that be?
I think I can be white again, so please, come and see~
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So yesterday, I did 4 dance shows. Long story on wha happened. But my fingers are too cold to type it all right now. For the past few days, I've been thinkin' 'bout a lot of important stuff. Thangs that affect me and the peeps 'round me. I am goin' crazy...I don't like it when I can't think straight. When I go back and forth. Wonderin' wha I should do, but really knowin' wha to do, just not how. 'Tis times like these when I'd really like to fall on my head, and forget everythin' XD But really, this is not normal for me. Why am I feelin' so, butterfly-erish? O__o Like, I don't know where to land. I don't even know wha I'm talkin' 'bout right now, but I feel that I need to get it out somehow. I feel like I'm gonna explode...not in an angry way, but just in a confused way. Hmmm...or maybe 'tis just hormones. Yeah, that must be it. I read that gal's hormones are craziest from 16-22. O.O But then 'gain, I drink milk that has no added hormones...go figure XD

Well, that's it for now. Thinkin' of ya, John ^^

Peep lover~

Well, the guy who was supposed to come at 2:30 to fix our heater didn’t show! So we called ‘em up and then they told us that he can’t come today ‘cause he’s 4 hours behind O__O So he might come tomorrow mornin’, when I’m getting’ ready for my dance show! O.o Yeah anyways…o.o

So my nails have just finished dryin’. I put sparkly nail decals on >:] Snowmen, hollies, candy canes, mittens, poinsettias, and bows. ‘Tis cute >:D

Anyways, I’m gonna go to dance rehearsal soon. o.o Won’t be on tomorrow…and most likely not Sunday. Take care y’all! Have a savvyful weekend, yo ^-^ *Gives special huggles to a special someone* Well, later then~ ^.^

Akane~

Yes, as you can see, I just updated my Journal's look! You like?

Hmmm..do I like? Well, yes and no...I like the kitty face but...I don't like pink >< It doesn't look like I can change the color though..so that blows...>< I guess I'll change it 'gain sometime..chow! o.o

Akane~

You Are a Tinsel Tree

For you, Christmas is no different than the rest of the year. And this means you do things your own way - and continue to surprise people.

Savvy. I love tinsel! o.o

You Are a Pineapple Jelly Bean

Easy going and undemanding, you have good taste but aren't a show off about it.

Yes! I'm a tropical dame, yo! >:]

Your Brain is 53% Female, 47% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

They used savvy! MY word!!! NOOOO! XD Oh, well... ._. 'Least this means that I can understand myself and Eric! >:]

You Were Born Under:

You've got a ton of energy - and need plenty of room to roam. You tend to follow your whims, and it's hard for you to stick to one thing. Specific jobs, loves, and friends are always changing and never a part of your life for long. Very intuitive, you tend to know what people are thinking before they say a word. You are most compatible with a Dog or Tiger.

I don't really agree but, whadev...O__O I'm loyal to peeps, gosh! o.o <---Sounds like Napolian Dynamite

Drip, drop, drip, drop
Tick, tock, tick, tock

The rain's not going away
Time's been running all day
I'm waiting for you to say
Walk with you, I may?

But you give me no sign
I'm sure that you'd decline
The sun doesn't shine
Because you're not mine

Though sometimes I have dreams
Where our love is real, it seems
On my heart you always lean
You admire me as a sunbeam

But alas, it is only the rain
That gives me this intoxicating pain
And the time has not a frame
So, I guess I'll never see you 'gain
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Just nonsense really XD...

Yesterday I went to the Orthodontist o.o!!! He went back to himself (a ladys' man), told me my skin was perfect, that I was a cute gal, and that...my braces could be off in January!!! YES!!!!!!! O_____O I'm gonna get drunk on...diet soda or somethin' O.o

Oh, and popcorn, my love! You've waited for me, and I've waited for you...for two years just 'bout! Just a lil' longer, and we can go back to the good ol' times..just you and me XD!

That's all folks! >:]

Akane aka Palenaki aka Brandy aka..oh, never mind! XD

Yesterday, we went shoppin' and got like, 27 CUTE Christmas ornaments...sparkly snowmen, santas, and stockin's..and we already have the white lights on the tree ^^ (I prefer colored lights myself but, whadev o.o) And we're gonna put gold sparkly stars on it..and white and red beads 'round it..^.^ 'Twill be a very savvy tree, I'm sure ^^

I'll end up wrappin' everyone's gifts but my own...that's how it always happens...but I don't mind ^^ I like wrappin' :)

Hmmm...I talked to my sis 'couple days ago...she's doin' good, for the most part^^ Several weeks 'go we all had a scare that she might be pregnant! O______O I think she's safe though...I think...I hope >> But if not, God'll take care of 'em...and we'll do our best to support her and her husband ^^ I'm too young to be an aunt! I am!! >> I'm even to young to be a sis-in-law but, well...can't change that now o.o 'Least I can beat my bro-in-law in yoga >:]

GAH!!!! 4 Dance shows on Saturday! o___o And all my Bible Study group wants to come! O.o *Sigh* Wait 'till a specific female leader sees da costumes...I'm dead XD But really, 'tis not that bad, yo! And I didn't choose it...so, don't hurt me! 'Tis just a dance show...and we're not close to the audience..we're on stage, ok?? << Lol, I'm makin' sound worse than 'tis...I just know that she's really uptight, that's all o.o

Oh, and Dance rehearsel is Friday...and Dance practice is tonight...@___@

And I have Bible Study on Monday and Tuesday is volunteer stuff 'gain...but then, FREEDOM!!! XD

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I do like helpin', doin' Bible study and dance but, y'know..my brain is fried and my bod's had 'nough O.o

Au revoir ^.^

Akane~ aka Palenaki~

I got two deluxe samples of the Heiress parfume from Paris Hilton...this is my favorite scent EVER!!! @_______@

I dunno how to even describe it but, yeah...'tis real savvy though ^.^

That's all for now...au revoir! ^^

Akane~ aka Palenaki~

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! Last Saturday I pulled over and changed jetski314159's flat tire (15 points). Last Monday I gave gods_samurai a kidney (1000 points). Last month on a flight to Colorado Springs, I stole the emergency flight information card (-40 points). Last Sunday I put money in leaches's expired parking meter (14 points). Last Thursday I helped rexman64 hide a body (-173 points). Overall, I've been nice (816 points). For Christmas I deserve a new bike! Sincerely, palenaki

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Wait...Eric has 3 kidneys, and I only have one! O___O No fair! >

Why? I'm like, always savvily happy...so why am I sad right now? 'Cause a lil' over 8 years ago, I was molested. And 'bout 4 years ago, I was sexually abused...in verbal form, if that makes sense. I end up wanting to hate those people...but I know God wouldn't want that. 'Tis so hard to forgive someone for rippin' you apart, eatin' your honor, and leavin' you there to live your death...without anyone, and without yourself... I've prayed over and over 'gain to get over this. But I never get over it..probably 'cause I'm not willin' to forgive them, or myself...for bein' so freakin' stupid! I have a dream of gettin' married and all that jazz, I really do. But, sometimes when I'm down like this...I wonder...can I handle it? Will I ever be more than just sex to someone? Somethin' more important? Someone to love and not just somethin' to lust after? There's nothin' wrong with sex when you're married. I'm not sayin' that. But I want to know that that's not why I'm there. And that's not why they're there with me. I want to be more than my sex appeal. Because if that's all I have, I have nothin'. I want to be more to myself. And hopefully, to someone else~

Akane~

Yep, that time 'gain. Tryin' to finish my Bible study book in two weeks so that I can go on to the the next one in 2007. Doin' volunteer work, dance shows, school, christmas shoppin', christmas decoratin'! XD Oh, and my de sucre's Birthday is comin' up, too :) 'Twill be very busy, but I can do it! I've lived to see sweet 16, right? o.O

That reminds me, I went shoppin' with my dad last-night... He got my mom a really nice gold bracelet. And the sales guy said, while lookin' at me, "And when she turns 16, you'll have to get her somethin' here" I was like, "I'm already 16" Then he was like, "Whoa, kids today look like kids but they're not kids, they're adults!" XD

Yeah...^^;;;

Au revoir,
Palenaki, the peep lover..or the Peep's lover >:]

I've been thinkin' and...I'm just so blessed to know you, Eric ^__^ You're always there for me, and I know you'd stick 'round even if thangs got tuff ^^ You make me laugh and you make the light even brighter! Thanks for bein' yourself :) I wouldn't wantcha any other way ^.~ You're super savvy, yo >:] You make me feel good, and I hope that I have the same effect on you^-^ 'Tis hard to find someone you can call your de sucre and your friend...but you got it XD

Sincerely,
Brandy

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